One writer's block

The big question of letting go bugged my mind around these last couple of months. Some things.. are they worth to keep, or should I let them go. Think I'm pretty good of letting things go, but when inputs and comments started to coming in, I'd have to reconsider my decision.. hence the state of dilemma I've been dwelling in. Uhm, so.. not so much on progress.. but last week someone told me something, things that I would usually shrug off my shoulder, things like, "Well, you should try praying, perhaps miracle would happen.." Aww, very nice of you to say, and to think that we hardly know each other.. So yay.. big decision.. big decision.. to just f*ckin do it or to put it on hold. I'm big at making decision, which of course that's just one pretty fat lie. To tell or not to tell, that's also one big decision to come up with. It's not that I won't tell, but more like when will be the right time to deliver the lovely message. Now or the upcom

On my last visit to Jogja (seriously this city has something captivating), I happened to visit Kraton Ngayogyakarta Hadiningrat aaaand Kraton Surakarta in one-day-trip to Solo. Both Kraton is interesting, but Jogja's has something more delicate about it. I dunno, maybe it's just me. Or maybe because by the time I visited Jogja, the city was kind of in hype for the royal wedding, hence the increasing number of activities inside Kraton. The tour guide when I visited Kraton Surakarta was paying more attention to 'soul-searching-inspiration-seeker-meditation' bunch of guys so he neglected my seemingly college kids group. I know, we're less interesting. So at every stop, they sat down and meditated. Seriously. No kidding. Geez. At first, it was interesting, but soon after that I found it so freakin boring waiting for 'em so we browsed the Kraton by ourselves, that's why we missed most of the story-telling from the guide. And maybe that's why I think the

Gory-galore time! Yay, I remembered I was super excited when this one came out. A short drama (it's only 3 episodes) about a girl taking revenge from her mother's killing. I have low expectation, as always, so I flipped like a dying fish when I saw the first episode. Flippin' in a good way. It's a bit Kill-Bill-ish and City Hunter-ish (in terms of the revenge theme) but the way they produced it made you feel like you're watching a big screen movie. Very professional and well-made, this one. It's about a high school girl (didn't I say so?) who is trained to kill, hence the title. But she kills with purpose. And I like that. She juggles her killing persona with her high school nerdy girl persona. Cute! Plus, I despise any Gothic Murderer who's like to quote on Bible just to make way of his action. Like when he was stabbed, he then quoted, "Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for thou art with me."

... that there are things that were not supposed to be said or done, but yet there are lots of things that were not supposed to be regretted. I always tried not to left my wish list things unattended, err.. I mean.. not accomplished. But these days, I kept forgetting my long-lost-wishes and thrown back to doing mundane things every day every week every friggin year. So here I am, trying to fulfill one of the biggest wish of my life, becoming a writer. ...Eh, ternyata susah ya, bok! Ya menurut lo? Hahaha, okay I'm not a strong-willed person apparently, but the idea kept bugging me over the years. And by the way I do know there are even people that are far more talented that I am, even within my friendship circles. But that's okay, I learned a lot from 'em. And by learning I mean copying their styles x) Speaking of which, this is actually why I wrote this post in the first place. I found glimpses of words in my Ipod, written a couple of months back, and I never.. NE

I think I never wear anything uncomfortable, ever. Let it be my beggar cropped jeans during campus time, or short pants that made me look like a kindergarten kid, or even my loose blazer that I wore nowadays to the office. The thing is, every time I had a reunion or whatsoever, people took note of how I dress that day. So I guess I might be the queen of mis match or something. Or maybe Korean freak as some would say, eventho I don't quite agree as Korean tends to dress formally-casual (if you know what I mean) Yesterday was one of my proudest attire ever. Hahaha. I totally wore the gem-studded tank top and cropped-jeans wannabe (by flipping it inside out, kekekeke, so me likey) with rocker's chain and lovely Lee-Minho's pink (or is it salem as one would say) blazer and the tennis shoe. Kekekekeke. Okay, apparently I'm not good with clothing names. The one that made me happy is that my boss doesn't comment anything after seeing my clothes. HAHAHAHA. Dude, at wh

One thing that I appreciate the most from Dr. Champ drama last few months is the damn camera they use. Gave you the feeling of watching a movie instead. And now the team is BACK with another drama, including their PD and cameramen, so yayyyyyy!! Scent of a Woman is about a woman (duh!) who is diagnosed with 6 more months to live. She was struck by that knowledge, hence the life-style-changing she'd done in this drama. The life style changing is not as shallow as straighten your hair and wear fabulous dresses (well that, too) but it's all about different perception of life. Before, she was just like the rest of us, working hard and swallowing her pride just to kiss some asses of the bosses in order to keep her job intact. ( ps: jadi inget pengalaman seseorang, "Level lo tu kerjanya ngga usah pake mikir! Kerjain aja!" xD ) And yes, she got blamed for something she didn't do, and according to Korea's term, no matter how not-guilty you are, just bow your hea

1. Spoiler 2. Got bitten by mosquito at my feet palm 3. The phrase "We need to talk.." and "Whatever.." 4. Intrusive, annoying and highly egoistical cats 5. Goodbyes 6. Being used and/or being taken for granted 7. Unpacking

Hurrah for taking a sick leave for two days. Now I know how much it hurts when your body suffers from lack of water. Thank you very much -__-" These last couple of days I was basically, well, stranded in bed, although not as romantic as it sounds. Can't sleep well, can't sit well, always had this tendency to throw everything up, and pretty much in dilemma. To eat or not to eat. Funny thing is, I managed to distract my mind from my pain and suffering *halah* by doing my office work. Yeah, go figure! I stayed up late trying to finish the goddamn interest accrue calculation that REALLY REALLY starting to get on my nerves. I mean, I didn't realize I was actually /that/ stupid not to know how to calculate interest accrue. Dude, by the time I finished this assignment, I'm so not gonna work in a bank. Ew. Ew. Ew. But then, I grew obsessed with this string of numbers, this matrix of formula, this magnificent data that is trying to tell me something. Kekekekeke. I suddenly

Hmm, I never tawt I would be pulled so hard by this drama. I mean, I ‘m not even a die-hard Lee Min Ho’s fans, not even after seeing him in Personal Taste. But whaddya know, the drama is slick and surprisingly refreshing. In terms of tone and directing, and the genre they picked, and the theme they chose. City Hunter was supposed to be about a playboy and sly detective catching bad guys all over town. Well, that is what City Hunter is basically all about, but I didn’t expect it to be.. yeah, this cool. City Hunter was basically run on the revenge premise thing. A boy seeking out to have a pay back with bad guys who killed his father. He was trained by a surrogate father, who was some sort of this creepy obsessed guy with dark personality and clever strategy. I love his dad SO MUCH, it hurts. Cause I /know/ he’s the bad guy, yet I love him. Aaawww… what should I do? This drama reminded me a lot of Batman, his secret cover and his damn wealth. And the sidekick he got, namely

Aloha! Been damn too long before I get the chance to write again. I miss you my blog, cup! Anyway, we have reached the half time of the year, more or less, and there's sad moment happy moment that I'd like to savor. Along the way, I've been pretty much the labil girl I (so not) used to be. And today is one of those days when I can think clearly about myself and my life. Yes, dear fellow reader, I hail to the "I, Me, Mine" concept so brace yourself. First, uhm.. I've been to many fun vacations taken with different circles of friends, and I enjoyed each and every one of 'em. Thousand island with the dorky college pals, Seoul with the ladies, and Bali with (basically the only) group I always hang out with at the office. Didn't mean to compare but each one felt like not enuff. No, not enuff at all. Although there's none that made me cringe at the end of the journey (you know, the feeling of not wanting it to end and stuff?), but everytime I rec

Okay, the title is just some catchy phrase I caught from Gossip Girl episode. Epic, eh? Recently I experience mid-life crisis, ha-ha, as in fut-the-wuck am I doin here? This is so boring and exhausting and no longer exciting as I thought it would be.. hence the all traveling plans I made.. for the sake of making some refreshment out of my life. Like a candy box. But then, I face another dilemma. Here comes new engagement, considerably different from my old assignment, and it grab my interest right away. I work with different people, I work with self-motivating coach-wannabe, I work within alien culture (which is totally clashing with my day-to-day working habit) and yes I discover new excitement. Alas, I grew this signature-of-stress-disease, pimples, oh-nooo.. that is one ultimate sign that I have been stressed out too much. So I self-reflected (again) and I got confused. Do I wanna do this or not? Please wucking made up your mind, girl! Making small talks with friends always ended up

Last week I got a side project, which is to make an offering to someone's spiritual teacher. This offering basically sum up all the good deeds she did during the last couple of years. Kinda cool, huh? One of the considerably good deed she did was this one particular orphanage which she maintained and cared for along with her friends. And I was one of those people that used to visit that orphanage. Those were incredible moments. Making this side project reminded me again of that orphanage. The lil devils and annoying brat, cutie children and really-really adorable one. Aaah, I missed them. The location of that orphanage is amazingly far far away in la la land. So it's been a privilege visiting them with my office mates, actually. Which I don't get to do very often nowadays, given the distance. Anywaaaay... those kids in the orphanage, they tend to consider strangers as someone they should reaaally not to pay attention to. Not to say that they're wrong, since people do co

This is the latest crack in my office. Officially succeeded in making everyone laughs. Like for real. The thing that I love about Korean variety show is that they keep changing the format as the show goes on. First episode concept is A WHOLE LOT different than (let's say) 27th episode. And it's still as hilariously funny. Anyway, Running Man is hosted by the very same MC that I adore back then when I was watching X-Man, MC Yoo Jae Suk. You know rite, that old variety show, with its famous "Dangyunhaji - Of Course" segment? With its rising star, the infamous Eagle Eye and his deathly words of seduction? Hahaha, I miss that show... Along with MC Yoo , there's also Kim Jong Kook (the mosquito singer, also the nickname he obtained from X-Man back then, since his voice is not what you expect from his body size) and Ha-ha (also a gag master from X-Man back then). The additional regular player is the ones I put my interest on. There's Song Joong Ki (shockingly came u

Part 1 Once upon a time, in one particular high school, lived one particular girl student. Let's call her Suzy. Not only that she got the looks, she also had the wealth and singing talent and lots of antis. All things other girls could only imagine. The thing is, Suzy's bloody cold and heartless. She always thought she deserved all those luxuries. She actually took it all for granted. Not a very noble girl, our girl. Until one day, the world turned against her. Or so she thought. The dad went bankrupt, and she abruptly thrown into one lousy lifestyle, but managed to seal it from others. Her fanatic girl admirers, mostly. She acted and talked like life still going on normal. At some point, she had to face the fact that dad's bankruptcy needs to be settled, and she needs to help the dad to solve the problem. Since the only talent she got is singing, the only thing possible was for her to get into the art school that will somehow boost her career. Fast. Alas, fate decided the

I usually never give a crap about where the food I ate came from. I largely enjoy meat, especially beef. Yes, whenever possible, I chose beef rather than chicken. And not to mention, I rarely eat vegetables. So I’m a big ‘fat’ carnivore, I guess. Then, we might say, yesterday’s dining experience was a bit new to me, since I had a discussion with my friends about the reason they chose the vegan lifestyle. As it turns out, the world has changed so much that the need to consume the meat endangers whole population. At first, me and my simple-minded brain found it ironic regarding the restaurant’s slogan (which is, Be Veg, Go Green and Save the Planet). How could you go green if all you eat was greenie thing? Hmm, okay, that was seriously ignorance of me. It was never about consuming the ‘tree’ but more like stopping the growth of livestock. This centuries, people’s demand of a livestock has increased so much, the livestock started to overgrown the demand itself, which made me wonder about

Secret Garden (2010) Okay, I went as far as making my own wallpaper out of it. That ought to tell you how obsessed I am with this drama. The quirky (if not insane) characters, the mental humor, the fantasy plot line, Hyun Bin, the huge library, awesome white sport car, simply the greatest house ever been, Hyun Bin, beautiful directing, awesome scriptwriter, hilarious supporting roles, have I mentioned Hyun Bin? Secret Garden is one of those rare K-Dramas where the male lead go straight into his woman. Uh-huh! He simply run after her, putting so much effort to get to know her, insisting (and being uber narcissist) that she should have liked him too. Hahahaha, love that character to the core. Okay, the sole reason why I watch this one is because of the Hyun Bin factor. Granted, never knew him before, but I did marathon-ing his old dramas to get to know him more (and a bad move, if I may say, for he is WAY more developed in Secret Garden), i.e. My Name is Kim Sam-Soon , World’s Wi