Part 1: She Knows He Knows

He touched her finger that was still pointed at his chest, "Still manage to scare the day out of me, I see." She smiled. Too sweetly. "Are you trying to get us killed? Not a good day to die, you say?".

How To Cross Road In Margonda

Somebody should publish this kind of booklet long before I even got enrolled in University of Indonesia. Duh! 1. If there's eventually a traffic light for passerby, please DO pay attention. It's not there for decoration purpose (only).

Dream High

Once upon a time, in one particular high school, lived one particular girl student. Let's call her Suzy. Not only that she got the looks, she also had the wealth and singing talent and lots of antis. All things other girls could only imagine.

Story From Far Java

On my last visit to Jogja (seriously this city has something captivating), I happened to visit Kraton Ngayogyakarta Hadiningrat and Kraton Surakarta in one-day-trip to Solo.

Letting Go

The big question of letting go bugged my mind around these last couple of months. Some things.. are they worth to keep, or should I let them go. Think I'm pretty good of letting things go, but when inputs and comments started to coming in, I'd have to reconsider my decision.

Monday, November 21, 2016

Catatan The Explorer

Explorer? Me? Nah! Traveler paling malas sedunia lebih tepatnya, males nenteng backpack berat, males naik tangga, males bangun pagi, males tidur malem, males kejar2 itinerary dan list to-be-seen di suatu kota. Tapi paling hobi keluar Jakarta. Kalau ada assignment luar Jakarta (misalnya Depok wkwk) pasti gw bakal selalu unjuk2 jari (tapi entah mengapa jarang kepilih 😢)  kayanya kurang keahlian memanah hati bos-bos, atau kurang dianggap cowo (which is DUH, ya pastilah, kadar estrogen gw kan tinggi sangat)

Anyway keluar Jakarta itu (atau ke luar domisili di mana pun gw berada) buat gw selalu menyenangkan. Why? Karena i enjoy people-watching activities. Kalo gw maen di Game of Thrones, mungkin gw adalah naganya (ya kali). I mean gw bakal jadi Watchers of The Wall. (Sambil berpikir kayanya job desc kurang nyambung ama minat,  like always)

People watching is interesting because i always come into the same conclusion. 

(1) Di mana2 semuanya adalah sama. Orang Arab yang hidungnya mancung2 dan putih2 dan ganteng2 (relatif) yang kalo ke Indo bakal jadi bintang pelem atau wisatawan ke puncak, di negara mereka tetep aja ada yang shitty ada yang baek. Ada yang kaya ada yang kere. Ada yang bajingan ada yang malaikat. Di Indo kalau lewat pasar suka disahutin, "Mari kakaa.." Kalo di Maroko suka disahutin, "China?? India?? Japan?? Konnichiwa.." 

(2) Apa yang baik di negara orang belum tentu baik di negara kita. Contoh turban. Di negara padang pasir, turban ini adalah anugerah ilahi. Karena selain bisa bikin rambut gw terlihat abis bonding, kepala bisa adem dan pasir ga bisa masuk mulut/hidung. Kalau dipake di Indonesia, biasanya bakal disangka pelaku demo anarkis yang bawa-bawa pentung. 

(3) Apa yang baik di negara kita belom tentu baik di negara orang. Contoh sholat ke arah Barat. Ini agak kocak soalnya entah mengapa temen gw cerita pas di mesjid dia ud cek arah kiblat Barat di hape eh ternyata dikasi tau salah arah dong. Ehm? Tapi ya sudahlah, jadilah di mana langit dipijak di situ langit dijunjung.

(4) Alay akan selalu ada dan belum disinyalir akan punah. Jika alay di Indo akan nyapa dengan, "Lam knal." Maka alay di Maroko akan nyapa dengan, "Slt." Cukup lama gw berkontemplasi dengan arti kata slt ini. Dan gw berkesimpulan ini artinya either "Salamat" or "Salud" secara mereka suka pake French gtu. I mean, what is wrong with typing the whole word properly. It will not cost you any different. Jaman SMS harga per huruf udah lewat, bro! Plis! Kzl!

(5) Cinta ga kenal usia atau ras atau latar belakang (eaa). Tiap kali liat pasangan2 beda ras atau beda latar belakang pasti gw bakal awww sendiri. Padahal bisa aja mereka bukan pasangan HAHAHAHA. Tapi gw akan selalu menebak-nebak poin perbedaan apa yang bikin mereka berdua itu klop, apa yang dilengkapi oleh si A dan apa yang dilengkapi oleh si B. Gw diskusi serius (tapi sumpah ga penting) malem2 dengan topik ini ama temen gw. Dia selalu at first impression ngeliat persamaan dalam sebuah(?) pasangan. "Mereka kayanya sama2 tukang makan deh." "Mereka pasti suka traveling deh berdua." "Mereka pasti pecinta tato tuh". Kalau gw? Berhubung gw introvert dan ga suka nyapa orang, maka gw akan ngarang like this, "Ih cewenya bawel banget tapi cowonya pendiam ya." "Aww cowonya tinggi besar tapi cewenya kecil imut ya." "Wow cowonya ud mature banget dibanding cewenya yang masih lasak sana sini." Etc etc. Kalau kamu bagaimana? (Ala-ala pertanyaan majalah remaja)

Intinya...? Intinya banyak2lah keluar dari rumah biar bisa lihat dunia. Kalo belom ada rejeki ya banyak2lah lembur biar ada rejeki. Karena dunia ga selebar daun kelor (padahal hingga detik ini gw ga tau tampang daun kelor) but ironically the world is so small that you will be so impressed.

Hopefully next year I will travel and see new random places all over again and be amazed by it.

(Ditulis saat nungguin delay KLM selama sejam padahal mereka sok banget nyuru2 boarding satu setengah jam sebelum flight. See, ga pesawat mahal ga pesawat murah sama2 bakal delay at some point in time)

Reposted from my Facebook wall, 30 October 2016

Monday, April 18, 2016

My Past Month

Apparently when you plan for something, it usually will not work, not immediately. At least that was what usually happened in my case.

I planned to be able to drive, so I took a driving course. Thinking that I might be able to slip one or two days of work into driving classes. But then, real life happened. By the second class, I was a bit tired and bored, because all I did was to conquer the fuckin road bump (apa sik bahasa inggrisnya Polisi Tidur?). Then I guess I would only be able to finish the whole class by next month, a bit late than what I expected.


Another thing that I applied for was actually being granted. A bit easier than I thought. And by that I mean its most annoying part was to get my photo taken.

Yep, my 'Murica visa. Yay! A visa with no clear plan of traveling there. Thank you my lovely office for limiting my annual leaves.

What else? Oh yeah, I did buy that IPhone 5S. Resulting in me having two fuckin phones. Because I'm so fuckin cheapo, that's why. I think I should've trusted myself better. If my phone is still wearable, I would never throw it away. Ever. So welcome my daily life with heavy bag, because now I carried around three phones along with the office's Blackberry.

Hmm.. I think this post should be warned with tagline #braggingComplaint or something like that.

Thursday, March 17, 2016

One too many

Never thought that I will ever think about this stuff in my entire life. What if I had one too many options than I can handle. That is ridiculous. I also think that it may be because I just don't know how to say no. But to which, hell if I know.

This is frustrating, indeed. To be or not to be. To choose or not to choose, or to keep instead. Gah.

Should I or should I not. Letting go of one and keeping the others? But I will be broken in either case. I know I will. That will hurt in some way, so am I ready to feel that? I have never been in this situation before, this new and challenging situation. I feel like a selfish person, wanting to grasp both. What a child. What a child.

Let me contemplate over this for few moments later. I am still allowed, ain't I? So I can make up my mind, making peace with my heart, letting go my feelings, and accept that I will make a hurtful decision.

Each one of them has their own strong points, and I love it all. Why can't a girl have two altogether? Why?

Should I or should I not buy the iPhone5S for IDR 4.8mio and six times installment with 0% interest rate while my old loyal phone still works?

Decision. Decision.

Sunday, February 21, 2016

New Year New Perspective

I am now in the second year of being a manager in my office. A decision that I hope my bosses wouldn't come to regret. Hahaha. But they offered me a challenge of series of KPIs so that I have the chance to become a Senior Manager. Lets see if I am up for it or not.

But firstly, I joined a very interesting and helpful series of training from Asiaworks starting in last January. I think the training got bad reviews from somewhere in the internet, but I didn't read it so far because I think people are entitled to their opinion. But for me, the trainer (and its trainings) helped me to look at things at new perspective. That is the most impactful lesson of the training. It raised my level of self awareness and helped me to explain why I did things the way I did. So I can change it if I thought it wasn't effective. Very cool experience of a training.

Also, i know more people that I can possibly know in the span of two months. Various people of various background, e.g. play artist, creative directors, architects, illustrators, health service people, doctors, entrepreneurs, all kinds of people. I love it. I love them all, especially people from the Advance training because I got to know them better. I have new friends from Medan, even. A couple of husband and wife who has been through failed marriage for three times and now got together with 5 kids. Amazing. Both have amazing personalities, but even they got something from the training.

Anyway. My life at the office should improve by now, hahaha, because I reacted at things differently now. More positive, more responsible (except for the microwave I blew up last week OMG what a classic me! Hahaha), and more caring than I used to. I hope.

Lots of people reminding me of my goals, lots of people care about my health, so it is time for me to care for others as well. Starting from my mom. Nowadays I call her and explicitly told her that I love her, a gesture that is considered very weird and awkward in my family but heck I did it anyway. I think she also gets it because these days when she talked with me, her tone is much more soothing and calm and not annoyed or madly hysterical making her blood tension level up. I talked with people more often because I realize the fear of rejection is just in my head. Then next is my apartment along with the roommate. Hahah, the closest things usually are the most left out things. I will ensure it will not be the case.

I have arranged a new trip to Morocco this year. The longest trip I arranged so far, three freakin weeks. Ow what the fuck, go for it anyway! I had my annual leave especially for this but if it is not enough, I will apply for one month unpaid leave.

What else, oh yeah, driving class and swimming lesson. Baby steps, my! Baby steps.

I also will take more mature decision about my love life. I will support the guy that I choose and giving him feedback if I think it's necessary. I will no more be the whining adolescent who expects ready product of something.

If not now, then when. Right?