Part 1: She Knows He Knows

He touched her finger that was still pointed at his chest, "Still manage to scare the day out of me, I see." She smiled. Too sweetly. "Are you trying to get us killed? Not a good day to die, you say?".

How To Cross Road In Margonda

Somebody should publish this kind of booklet long before I even got enrolled in University of Indonesia. Duh! 1. If there's eventually a traffic light for passerby, please DO pay attention. It's not there for decoration purpose (only).

Dream High

Once upon a time, in one particular high school, lived one particular girl student. Let's call her Suzy. Not only that she got the looks, she also had the wealth and singing talent and lots of antis. All things other girls could only imagine.

Story From Far Java

On my last visit to Jogja (seriously this city has something captivating), I happened to visit Kraton Ngayogyakarta Hadiningrat and Kraton Surakarta in one-day-trip to Solo.

Letting Go

The big question of letting go bugged my mind around these last couple of months. Some things.. are they worth to keep, or should I let them go. Think I'm pretty good of letting things go, but when inputs and comments started to coming in, I'd have to reconsider my decision.

Thursday, April 28, 2005


Yesterday was quite a new experience when I visit my co-company for my assignment at campus...
My emotional part practically went up and down that day...from tears to laughters...

Huhuhu, that contact person was such a funny guy, until he came up with the question, "Aw, come on, tell me, why there were only the four of you?? Where's the other one??"

Then we're just like, "Err.." and grinning uncertain to each other..

Man, that was tough.. I barely could tell the whole story without sobbing so thank God there were Arnold and Dikey..

And he was so damn shock... yeah, no wonder...

And the meeting continued, we're discussing about the modelling design and stuff and then he offered us a job... huhuhu... why does this life become such an irony??
I dunno, he was so easy offering us that chance and though I was so happy, but at the same time I also wasn't so delighted =(
My friend didn't get a chance to feel the same thing as we did... duuh, padahal dia demen banget kalo bisa KP di DKSH...


Anyway, yesterday Dian also got hooked by the mister in blue shirt =D a.k.a our contact person...huahahahaha, she seemed like taking over my part as the nyolot one and then he practically paying MORE attention to her...huahahahaha....


Monday, April 25, 2005

dance with my father

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then

Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure
I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love, love, love to dance with my father again

Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear her, mama cryin' for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me

I know I'm prayin' for much too much
But could You send back the only man she loved
I know You don't do it usually
But Lord, she's dyin' to dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream

~miss my old dad...
~how could I never even missed him before this?

Monday, April 18, 2005

calming down

Sorry to everyone I've been put my anger on.. really didn't mean to =) Sorry, guys... (and kalo ga ada yang berasa, jangan sok berasa de =P)

Anyway, this mid exam did a great effort to breakdown my nerve =D It's almost 7pm yet I'm still being around this lab... doing nothing but to read the slides.. boring.. ugh..

Friday, April 15, 2005


Hey, napa polisi2 bertindak lambat sekali????

Apa polisi2 di Indonesia emang dari sononya kaya keong yang ngurusin hal2 ngga penting, ato memang they have their own way to solve a criminal problem???

Gue heran, nih udah seminggu n progressnya masih NGGA ADA, plis de Pak...

Hasil visum juga kaga dikasi tau, motif juga blon dapet, keterangan saksi juga ngga dicari, yang ada mereka malah heboh kasus Flash Disknya hilanglah, motif cinta segitigalah (di antara kelompok Anaperancis-nya segala lagi!!!), motif dendam karena ngerebut cewe oranglah...


He's not that kinda guy, for God's sake, maybe you could find such cases in FISIP ato di HUKUM, but not in FASILKOM.. you don't even have TIME to consider a murder just because of some love-stuff...

Aaargh, gue kirain polisi bakal lebih canggih-an cara berpikirnya daripada gue yang notabene cuma tau ngetik doang (Oh, iya, jadi inget, gue diinterogasi sejam - dua jam padahal waktu bersih tanya jawab cuman sepuluh menit, d'you have any idea what did the so-called-cop do with the rest of 'em?? NGETIK PAKE 4 JARI, Oh My Dear Lord!)

Gue stres sendiri, tuh pelaku udah jamin 100% kabur dah, kalo ketangkep gue langsung bakar hidup-hidup! Dasar satpam UI katro, baru rajin patroli abis kejadian kaya gini, dasar RSCM katro, nge-visum aja pake alat-alat berkarat, aaaargh...

Lama-lama I'm gonna consider it as a pure random criminal and my dear Daliu was just not in the right place n time. Lebih ngga nyakitin hati, nguras pikiran n tenaga buat nyari motif dan alasan...

Yaelah, Dal...

Monday, April 11, 2005


I'm scared.. truly scared..
Scared of my friends' safety, scared of my own safety...

But beyond those things, I missed Daliu a LOT, he just didn't deserve to die like that.

Hate the killer, hate the drugs dealer, hate the whole thing including me myself that day...



Indonesia mode:

Gue udah over his departure to heaven kemaren ampe hari ini di Anaperancis gue denger kemungkinan baru itu. Kalo dia emang 'itu', apakah mungkin gue dan the rest of my anaperancis group 'begitu' juga?

parno parno parno....

jangan biarkan arnold pulang sendirian malem2 dong...

Saturday, April 9, 2005

What a waste

A few days ago, I wasted my tears for sumtin SO NOT IMPORTANT and I regretted it A LOT! Sick! Very sick person he is...


Monday, April 4, 2005


Pope died... camerlengo... conclave.. cardinal...

Sounds so damn familiar...

What next?? Nuclear reactor?? The end of the world??