One writer's block

Kemaren malem cerita2 ama nyokap gue, udah lama banget ngga cerita2 bareng dia padahal dia udah di jakarta lebih dari 1 bulan =( Abisnya gue suka pulang malem and langsung tidur... *sigh* Anyway, kemaren cerita2 tentang anak2nya yang notabene termasuk gue =) Kalo dipikir-pikir dari sudut pandang orang luar, nyokap gue adalah nyokap yang sangat beruntung karena di saat keadaannya kaya sekarang ini, dua anak terbesarnya berhasil masuk PTN terkenal di Indonesia (iyalah, gue UI and ade gue ITB gtu =P) Bukannya nyombong, tapi beneran nyokap gue pasti keliatan keren banget di mata temen2nya, apalagi dengan status jandanya yang udah lama and ngga punya penghasilan tetep, ternyata anak2nya bisa ngebanggain dia (Amiin) Duuh, kemaren itu sebenernya gue udah ngga enak ati ama nyokap gue, IP gue pas2an banget, mayoritas C and ada yang ngulang segala, bahkan ampe sekarang gue ngga jelas lahan pekerjaan gue di mana and sebenernya gue capable ngga sih untuk kerja kaya gitu??? Ya gitu

A self reducing, that's exactly what I called myself during these few days =( Udah makin lama jadwal saya makin padat, trus jadi beneran apa2 pulang jam 5-6an sore, belon lagi rapat dmana-mana yang kadang2 butuh bolos di tengah2 kuliah *sigh* Capek, badan saya pegal2, euy...pulang2 tepar and sekalinya liburan (Minggu doang lagi) langsung tidur blek... Ah, actually ada yang mengganggu pikiran, well, not 'mengganggu' juga sih, cuma it tickled my mind a bit, humm...udah ah... Btw, MTV ajang ajeng itu seru abis rek, i'm astonished about how they treated their surrounding =) Marah2 cuma gara2 masalah sepele kaya ada yg suka ngomong vokal bisa berantem gede, marah2 gara2 berasa ada yg over acting di depan kamera padahal siapa tau dienya biasa2 aja eh bisa cakar2an, bleh...the point is..they're girls in common =S Thank God gue ngga kaya gitu, ngga pernah ngomongin orang, ngga pernah mikir hal negatif ttg orang2 =) Huehehe, sounds like i'm a bit too arrogant, huh?

Hari ini saya pergi ke kampus dengan sukacita =D Soalnya tadi pas di bus ada cowo cakep banget di sebelah gue, udah gitu pas gue lirik (cieeh, evaluator!) kayanya Gading! Buset, kaget kan gue??? Gading mana cakep coba?? =D Anyway...setelah kurang lebih satu jam berlalu, cowo ini..ternyata wangi =D huahahaha, norak banget de gue, kan gue tidur gitu loh, jadi baru nyadar pas gue udah nyampe Margonda ^^ Tidak hanya itu saja, di barel tadi bahkan orang2 yang berseliweran ternyata lucu2 and wangi2 =D Senang saya x) Anyway, kemaren malem (beh, pulang malem lagi?) abis cerita2 ternyata proposal ditolak, duh...katanya sih gara2 kurang nyatu aja kata2 orang2 yang pada ngajuin proposal ituh =( Yaah, kapan ya bakal di-approve ama yang di atas?? *sigh* Hoh, mabim n MK segeralah berlalu, saya lelah T_T (kalo gue aja lelah, gimana POnya coba?) btw, napa ya...ternyata setelah dipikir-pikir, keuanganku terasa berat =( bleh...kapan neh punya gaji sendiri? mana kapan itu gue nolak lagi wawan

waw, saya terharu sekali... after what i called a three-tiring hours =( finally i came up with an idea, why don't i use my database project assignment as the basic CSS for this one? Blah, after all, I just realize that they're both using the exact matching color..TERRACOTTA for God's sake! -_- Duh!

pengen pindah2 dari livejournal ke sini :D Apa daya terasa malessss banget, hehehe...mending yang ini gue pake buat nulis2 cerita2 gue ajah...hohoho

Yesterday i went to a wedding =D Kinda nu experience for me since I never had to wear those kebaya (forgive me for my lack of vocab, will ya?) and high heels (though not that high =P). Hahaha, between joy and suffer, I kept my self steady until the end of that event, and after that, I had a creambath =D Kinda reverse, huh? Bodo amat =D The thing is, my mood back to normal after a though days before =) Fufufu (^_^)y~ That was a silly day, honestly, cause at first I was so embarassed I almost refused to see my friend's face, padahal dia yang bikin pesta (well, bonyoknya siih) Ngga banget kan?Hahahaha...udah ah, lupain... Anyway, my recent dilemma is ... should I go to that interview or NOT?? let's list the adv and the disadv...first...I'm definetely sure I won't be accepted to that job since I had no skill in foreign language (except for english and a tiny germany...and when I said tiny...I do mean it). Second, I dont even know where the interview will take place...hoh

yesterday was a day of drama...really spent my whole energy... gue kemaren ngalamin 'pancaroba' suasana hati and mood, mulai dari sebelum evaluasi yang gue nervous karena gue pertama kali korlap, trus evaluasi yang gue marah banget karena 2004 sucks! angkatan paling malas sedunia, ngga kepikiran napa bisa secuek and semales itu x( tanda tangan seangkatan ngga mau nyari, tanda tangan senior ngga mau nyari, yel2 ngga ada gerak, buku angkatan masih berupa disket, baksos yang kumpul rapat angkatan cuma 30 orang, wuih, kalo diinget-inget lagi jadi bikin gue emosi lagi! Trus mood gue jadi kecewa and felt hopeless and angry soalnya waktu itu kita ngga bole marah2, ngga bole keras ama maru padahal keliatan hasilnya udah gini...damn SC! trus ada tekanan lagi ama senior, gara2 yel2 ngga beres, gara2 kita diem aja padahal yel2 mereka dah ngga beres, gara2 kita ngga ngumumin ada evaluasi segala, ugh...pala gue mumet dah! Udah gitu, pas rapat evaluator, there's one significant thing y

These days I felt tired... I dunno, it seems exhausted for me, again and again talking n discussing about that 'thing' =| I don't really get it, what's so difficult about accepting sumtin different from you?? It's past, man...it's over, but they're keep showing it and made it a 'topic' AGAIN...duh, I felt tired. Gue kadang2 serba salah deh, I know that they were right at one point, but puh-lease -_- we're not that wrong anyway. Who's to blame? Whose fault is this? How come my batch always is the bad side, the wrong one, the rebel and the most be-judged batch? I'm so damn tired.... Topik ini, khusus topik ini, selalu jadi bahan yang sensitif di angkatan gue. Mulai dari gue masuk ke kampus 'tercinta' Fasilkom ini, sampai sekarang!! Sampai gue jadi senior yang nge-mabimin orang...bayangin aja, sampai sekarang angkatan gue masih jadi angkatan kontroversial di anak2 atas... "2002? Oh, pantes..." What the heck??? Kadang-k

Oookay...ternyata reaksi pada diri saya aga2 lambat...kira2 2-3 jam baru ngeh =D Oh My God...hahaha...lumayan seneng juga sih, but I dunno, honestly I don't really understand what kinda feeling I had for now on =( Biasa-biasa aja n berasa dah lama banget alias kinda jaded gitu kali yak? *sigh* And today...well, the most unexpected thing happened =( She told me that I'm a scary senior T_T wow, I mean...I didn't really mean that =( Okay, alright, perhaps I was a bit carried away during the last evaluation, but that because they're made me upset for ignoring such significant event as graduation!!! I mean...hey, what would you feel when your graduation moment got ruined by such a spoiler juniors?? See? I'm acting rational and logical here...

In numerical analysis, the numerical stability of a method describes how that method responds to the differences between the calculation and the function being approximated. In a stable method, the errors due to the approximations get damped out as the computation proceeds. In an unstable method, any errors in processing get magnified as the calculation proceed. Unstable methods quickly generate garbage and are useless for numerical processing. blah blah blah... can you even understood what the heck was it?? -_- get dizzy easily lately, aren't I?? o maaan... i miss him ... kinda -_- but ... oh well, who cares anyway??? (I do, damn it!!)

i'll quote the recent manga i read written by yuki kaori sensei m(_._)m "if i can heal the blood that flows from that crown of thorns, even just a little... then i don't mind being your treasured doll..." Oh, damn..that was deep, honestly...especially when u know what the story tells about =)

Sorry, but i HAD TO write these on indonesian ^^ Tino NGGA BANGET, gw baru aja baca2 postingannya dia di forum gw and gue ngakak, gw kutip deh... "ketika ku berjalan... seorang jelita menatapku.. kutatap balik, beradu pandang cukup lama... dia pun tersenyum.. mungkin aku adalah tipenya? ternyata.. she's looking at my hair.." HAHAHAHAHA.....fyi, my dear friend Tino ini adalah seorang Afroman =D anyway, tadi baru aja ngelatih untuk yg terakhir kalinya MC buat wisuda besok..huhuhu, napa ya acara wisuda kaya gini selalu bikin saya sensian jadi orang...wisuda yang lalu juga gw kecewa banget, padusnya jelek T_T padahal wisuda kemaren itu yang bikin anak2 angkatannya gue and yang diwisuda ituh...ada yang bener2 ngaruh di kehidupan kampus gue, well, not in romantique way but he had affected me a lot, and he's the senior i adored so much...wisuda yang ini, ada banyak senior2 gue yang gue bener2 hormatin and kagumin...tapi kayanya...gimana ya? di saat gue lag