One writer's block

So would you let me be myself.. Reach all my dreams and hopes.. I know you know me better.. I know you love me do... Hmm, Pertama kali denger D'Cinnamons pas jalan di Bandung with my dearest old time friend who's about to gettin married this July *damn you for being so lucky Neneeek!!* Easy listening, Alanis Morisette/The Corrs voice-look-alike, dan on top of that, it's unplugged music , music I seriously love. Sigh. Terutama yang lirik di atas.. I dunno, it just suit my mood these days, hehehe.. Mana abis kebetean mendadak karena satu tim kantor batal outing ke Bandung karena deadline terkutuk, tapi akhirnya belajar untuk nrimo tepo seliro (??) since what can I do anyway? Untung the week before I already travel around that city seharian. Wisata kuliner dadakan di Rumah Nenek, Yoghurt Cisangkuy (thanks to a friend, I learned not to order any Chocolate Yoghurt ._.), Nyonya Rumah, daaaan nikahannya senior kantor gue. Talk about numerous things with this Nenek who's abou

My ear felt hurt. Couldn't believe of what they said. Again it seems like a blur. Constantly changing, yet no one ever hear what I say. Not even bother to try to listen to me anyway. What is wrong with you, guys? Hated to be underestimated. Hated to be ignored. Hated even more to be judged and be misjudged. Need to do some serious crying here. Why did my pitch always take a higher note than I want it to be? Made me looked weak. Hate it a lot. Extremely hate it. But then again, why do I even bother to put my feeling before everything I do? It's not supposed to be like that. I'm suppose to do things right, not to feel them right. Down with it! Mad beyond reason, yes, that's me nowadays. Mad beyond reason. News is coming down my way. Bad news, good news, things I don't really want to hear, things I don't even need to hear. Surprised? Sure. Mortified? Absolutely. In doubt? Never more. Oh, simple thing, where have you gone? Where have you gone? I'm getting tired