One writer's block

Have you ever found yourself in a dream so warm you never want to wake up? I did, and in my dream, I was in a place decorated with a big Christmas tree with all the lights and candies and fireplace and socks full of presents. And the music played was so soft, the famous 'Christmas Song' with 'chestnuts roasting on an open fire...' and so on. Well, yesterday I did watch the series, "Grey's Anatomy" and of the episodes showed the room exactly like the one in my dream. And yes, it's a heartwarming room. Damn, I always want to spend my Christmas somewhere snowy and united statey (is that even a word?). Sigh, right now I'm in a state of serious envy with my cousins there. Mmmh, speaking of which yah, recently I watched never-too-many TV series thanks to my colleague in office =) Started from Heroes , Prison Break , Supernatural , My Name is Earl , Grey's Anatomy , Jericho , Scrubs , Coffee Prince , A Love to Kill , Hana Yori Dango , dll. Ehm, among ...

Is it true that women was given the gift called intuition? Well, if it’s true, then sometimes I hate this gift. I hate to be acquainted with what others might think about me, whether they’re irritated or dissapointed at me. It might be better if I lack of that knowledge nonetheless. World will be brighter, sky will be bluer, food will taste better, and obviously I don’t have to suffer this annoying feeling. Btw, recently I recalled some of my old conversations among friends.One of them quote the infamous quote, "Don't get yourself flying too high, because when you fell, it'll hurts" But today, I just read the opposite of that quote, "Falling from three stairs and fifty stairs will be hurt anyway. So when I do fall, it better be from a higher place." Pretty nice. Never think about it before. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Being working more than 6 months in a big company, a super-fast-trade-off shoul...

Ever felt something similar to a burden on your weight, a feeling that you shouldn't brag to anyone or couldn't complain to anyone, or even telling them how you feel, simply because you're not really in the high moment at the time? Well, I s'pose to acknowledge my lack of attention on those things.. But today it felt so damn real. I could not send any of my messages without the pang of guilty. And that's because I do not want to bother them with my problem, my sorrow mood, unhappy days, or anything else. How weird is that? Me, the master of ignorance, actually had a second thought on bothering people with my own problem. Great! And next morning I'll see sun rises from the west. --------------- Had I posted this several days ago, somebody will be pissed off.. And that refers to me.. So, lesson learnt, never post anything depressing while your emotion in a labil condition =P

Been through a hell kind of airplane journey. Hueks, goncangannya euy di atas sana... ogah naek pesawat lagi (.__.) Tidaaaks...! Tiap kali dia turun naek ala Dufan, I'll soon awake and start to panic. Bener2 kayanya lebih worth it ke Dufan deh. Yang paling geblek di antara semua kejadian yang gue alamin.. Pesawat: *Gubrak... jedug... ziiing.. ziiing.. brak bruk... wiiiii... hyuuu...* (menggambarkan betapa kacaunya keadaan up there) Gue: *silence mode on, kilasan masa kecil mulai berkelebat di memori* Pesawat: *Gusrak.. gedebug.. yiiiiing* Flight Attendant: "Ladies and gentlemen... your life jacket was seated under your seat.." Gue: *mulai menyumpah-nyumpah dengan histeris* Flight Attendant: "Anyone who carry those life jacket without permission out of the plane will be charged and fined .. bla bla bla..." Gue: *tziiiiiing* Aslilah gue ngga merasa lucu sama sekali waktu itu. Huhuhuhuhu. That was indeed once in a lifetime experience. Stupid bad joke! Hate it! Grrr...

So would you let me be myself.. Reach all my dreams and hopes.. I know you know me better.. I know you love me do... Hmm, Pertama kali denger D'Cinnamons pas jalan di Bandung with my dearest old time friend who's about to gettin married this July *damn you for being so lucky Neneeek!!* Easy listening, Alanis Morisette/The Corrs voice-look-alike, dan on top of that, it's unplugged music , music I seriously love. Sigh. Terutama yang lirik di atas.. I dunno, it just suit my mood these days, hehehe.. Mana abis kebetean mendadak karena satu tim kantor batal outing ke Bandung karena deadline terkutuk, tapi akhirnya belajar untuk nrimo tepo seliro (??) since what can I do anyway? Untung the week before I already travel around that city seharian. Wisata kuliner dadakan di Rumah Nenek, Yoghurt Cisangkuy (thanks to a friend, I learned not to order any Chocolate Yoghurt ._.), Nyonya Rumah, daaaan nikahannya senior kantor gue. Talk about numerous things with this Nenek who's abou...

My ear felt hurt. Couldn't believe of what they said. Again it seems like a blur. Constantly changing, yet no one ever hear what I say. Not even bother to try to listen to me anyway. What is wrong with you, guys? Hated to be underestimated. Hated to be ignored. Hated even more to be judged and be misjudged. Need to do some serious crying here. Why did my pitch always take a higher note than I want it to be? Made me looked weak. Hate it a lot. Extremely hate it. But then again, why do I even bother to put my feeling before everything I do? It's not supposed to be like that. I'm suppose to do things right, not to feel them right. Down with it! Mad beyond reason, yes, that's me nowadays. Mad beyond reason. News is coming down my way. Bad news, good news, things I don't really want to hear, things I don't even need to hear. Surprised? Sure. Mortified? Absolutely. In doubt? Never more. Oh, simple thing, where have you gone? Where have you gone? I'm getting tired...

Been a wonderful day, cause u know what, I finally spent overtime in my client office, and as an additional note, gue jadi kuncen (red: juru kunci) selama 2 hari berturut-turut, Bo! Sang mas-mas yang jagain ruangan akhirnya menyerah nungguin gue kerja jam 9 malem, dan menyerahkan segambreng kunci dengan petuah-petuah sepanjang dosa (._.) Sigh, berhubung satu lantai dah sepi, ngga salah dong kalo gue akhirnya memanfaatkan kabel telepon buat internetan. Hehehe. Jadilah gue nyambi browsing (dan chatting) di sela-sela kegiatan nguli gue. In one of those moment, I stumbled upon this cute quiz, tentang Which Heroes Are You . Secara ya belakangan ini gue mengikuti tu serial dengan intens (hueks), gue pun mengikuti tu quiz dengan harap-harap cemas, euy! Dan hasilnya, gue adalah Niki Sanders dan Sylar ! Hihihihi... what a combination ngga sih? Sama-sama sadis, sama-sama kuat, sama-sama hobi ripped head/body open.. I mean, what???? Is that me?? No way! Gue kan lucu dan menggemaskan =) Trus trus,...