One writer's block

The big question of letting go bugged my mind around these last couple of months. Some things.. are they worth to keep, or should I let them go. Think I'm pretty good of letting things go, but when inputs and comments started to coming in, I'd have to reconsider my decision.. hence the state of dilemma I've been dwelling in. Uhm, so.. not so much on progress.. but last week someone told me something, things that I would usually shrug off my shoulder, things like, "Well, you should try praying, perhaps miracle would happen.." Aww, very nice of you to say, and to think that we hardly know each other.. So yay.. big decision.. big decision.. to just f*ckin do it or to put it on hold. I'm big at making decision, which of course that's just one pretty fat lie. To tell or not to tell, that's also one big decision to come up with. It's not that I won't tell, but more like when will be the right time to deliver the lovely message. Now or the upcom...

On my last visit to Jogja (seriously this city has something captivating), I happened to visit Kraton Ngayogyakarta Hadiningrat aaaand Kraton Surakarta in one-day-trip to Solo. Both Kraton is interesting, but Jogja's has something more delicate about it. I dunno, maybe it's just me. Or maybe because by the time I visited Jogja, the city was kind of in hype for the royal wedding, hence the increasing number of activities inside Kraton. The tour guide when I visited Kraton Surakarta was paying more attention to 'soul-searching-inspiration-seeker-meditation' bunch of guys so he neglected my seemingly college kids group. I know, we're less interesting. So at every stop, they sat down and meditated. Seriously. No kidding. Geez. At first, it was interesting, but soon after that I found it so freakin boring waiting for 'em so we browsed the Kraton by ourselves, that's why we missed most of the story-telling from the guide. And maybe that's why I think the...

Gory-galore time! Yay, I remembered I was super excited when this one came out. A short drama (it's only 3 episodes) about a girl taking revenge from her mother's killing. I have low expectation, as always, so I flipped like a dying fish when I saw the first episode. Flippin' in a good way. It's a bit Kill-Bill-ish and City Hunter-ish (in terms of the revenge theme) but the way they produced it made you feel like you're watching a big screen movie. Very professional and well-made, this one. It's about a high school girl (didn't I say so?) who is trained to kill, hence the title. But she kills with purpose. And I like that. She juggles her killing persona with her high school nerdy girl persona. Cute! Plus, I despise any Gothic Murderer who's like to quote on Bible just to make way of his action. Like when he was stabbed, he then quoted, "Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for thou art with me."...

... that there are things that were not supposed to be said or done, but yet there are lots of things that were not supposed to be regretted. I always tried not to left my wish list things unattended, err.. I mean.. not accomplished. But these days, I kept forgetting my long-lost-wishes and thrown back to doing mundane things every day every week every friggin year. So here I am, trying to fulfill one of the biggest wish of my life, becoming a writer. ...Eh, ternyata susah ya, bok! Ya menurut lo? Hahaha, okay I'm not a strong-willed person apparently, but the idea kept bugging me over the years. And by the way I do know there are even people that are far more talented that I am, even within my friendship circles. But that's okay, I learned a lot from 'em. And by learning I mean copying their styles x) Speaking of which, this is actually why I wrote this post in the first place. I found glimpses of words in my Ipod, written a couple of months back, and I never.. NE...

I think I never wear anything uncomfortable, ever. Let it be my beggar cropped jeans during campus time, or short pants that made me look like a kindergarten kid, or even my loose blazer that I wore nowadays to the office. The thing is, every time I had a reunion or whatsoever, people took note of how I dress that day. So I guess I might be the queen of mis match or something. Or maybe Korean freak as some would say, eventho I don't quite agree as Korean tends to dress formally-casual (if you know what I mean) Yesterday was one of my proudest attire ever. Hahaha. I totally wore the gem-studded tank top and cropped-jeans wannabe (by flipping it inside out, kekekeke, so me likey) with rocker's chain and lovely Lee-Minho's pink (or is it salem as one would say) blazer and the tennis shoe. Kekekekeke. Okay, apparently I'm not good with clothing names. The one that made me happy is that my boss doesn't comment anything after seeing my clothes. HAHAHAHA. Dude, at wh...

One thing that I appreciate the most from Dr. Champ drama last few months is the damn camera they use. Gave you the feeling of watching a movie instead. And now the team is BACK with another drama, including their PD and cameramen, so yayyyyyy!! Scent of a Woman is about a woman (duh!) who is diagnosed with 6 more months to live. She was struck by that knowledge, hence the life-style-changing she'd done in this drama. The life style changing is not as shallow as straighten your hair and wear fabulous dresses (well that, too) but it's all about different perception of life. Before, she was just like the rest of us, working hard and swallowing her pride just to kiss some asses of the bosses in order to keep her job intact. ( ps: jadi inget pengalaman seseorang, "Level lo tu kerjanya ngga usah pake mikir! Kerjain aja!" xD ) And yes, she got blamed for something she didn't do, and according to Korea's term, no matter how not-guilty you are, just bow your hea...

1. Spoiler 2. Got bitten by mosquito at my feet palm 3. The phrase "We need to talk.." and "Whatever.." 4. Intrusive, annoying and highly egoistical cats 5. Goodbyes 6. Being used and/or being taken for granted 7. Unpacking