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Yesterday I cracked open. It's like this whole bunch of my self defense, my belief, and my safety nets was being torn open, widely to the unknown world called reality. Well yes, finally reality let herself in to my, unguarded and indiscreet, life. Sometimes I just hate reality. Especially when reality tells me that I need to go to the medical center. Reality sucks! And so does hospital. Really loathe them. I truly have no intention to step my feet on that building if it wasn't for an emergency cases. Like having a minor heart attack. Which I didn't have, of course. Thank God! I just happen to suffer an iterative dry cough that apparently time will heal, and for that conclusion, I got to spent nearly 300 grand for a specialist doctor. Wherein I didn't really mind, since he's a very nice and gentlemen doctor, quite as old as my grandfather (the one who suggested me to take a thorax rontgen) and has a kind personality to explain to me everything I want and need to know...

Dunno why, but after watching couples of JDorama series, Hana Youri Dango 2 seemed a lot better than the first one. It brought back old memories from Meteor Garden, hehehe , only wrapped in a whole lot different package than the Taiwan series. Apalagi abis nonton Liar Game n Hanakimi , sosok - sosok F4- nya jadi berasa beneran lucu . I guess the character they played is matter anyway. Speaking of Liar Game , I strongly suggest you to watch it together with friends. I did it, and it was a hell lotsa fun. The puzzle, the strategy, the technique they're using to win the game, that just about excellent. To put it in one word, Liar Game is combined movie between Conan, Deathnote and Kindaichi. Well, maybe I'm a bit exaggerated, but hell it's true. Though I'm only fond of the second round sebenernya. Bayangin aja gue nonton ampe bawa-bawa kalkulator segala... So, what is a Liar Game talking about? Basically it's a movie where people being seduced into a trick...

Sometimes I just kept forgetting that I have several good-looking juniors *laughing maniacally* ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- And yes *by the way* recently I was so captured with this guy, an actor playing the character "Nakatsu Shuichi" in Hanazakari No Kimitachi (hanakami for short) and whose real name is Ikuta Toma. While seaching for more info bout this cutie, gue baru nemu fakta kalo dia ternyata maen di Hanayori Dango 2, ya oloooh... sialnya gue cuman punya tu season mulai dari episode 3, tragis banget nasib gue Neeek! *tersedu-sedan... maybe BMW* *By the way* Gue tentunya not attracted only by his look dong (._.) Please, I'm not that shallow! But maybe by his hair... Anyway, the thing that made me interested with this guy adalah aktingnya yang brilian. He's the only actor there (in the series) yang bikin tu movie bearable to watch. Huhuhu.. tentunya selaen tokoh Nanba Minami (yang juga punya aura2 keren), ...

Bulan puasa ini adalah pertama kalinya gue kena yang namanya ALERGI! Please, selama 23 tahun hidup gue, ngga pernah sekalipun badan gue kena ALERGI, not a sneeze, not a red spot, not an itch, NOTHING! *histeris* Tapi kemaren Jumat dong, gue dengan polosnya memandangi leher gue di WC kantor, koq merah gini? Garuk-garuk, kucrit, merahnya menjalar ke bahu, lengan, kaki, dan beberapa tempat-tempat lucu lainnya. Dan dari itu incident, satu-satunya hal yang gue baru notice dari diri gue adalah... my 'alam bawah sadar' is way too powerful, lads and gents! Ngga pake gue sadarin, tu tangan dah gerak sendiri garuk2! Ohmigod, stres gue seharian kemaren euy. Untunglah, tak dinyana, dunia kedokteran sudah maju rupanya. Ada penemuan ajaib namely INSIDAL sebagai obat alergi terkemuka. Gue sebut terkemuka karena ukurannya itu cute bangeeeet, huahahahahahaha... ngga ada sebesar telor cicak, sodara-sodara setanah aer!! Jadi buat gue yang susah nelen obat ini, INSIDAL adalah berkah di balik bat...

Have you ever found yourself in a dream so warm you never want to wake up? I did, and in my dream, I was in a place decorated with a big Christmas tree with all the lights and candies and fireplace and socks full of presents. And the music played was so soft, the famous 'Christmas Song' with 'chestnuts roasting on an open fire...' and so on. Well, yesterday I did watch the series, "Grey's Anatomy" and of the episodes showed the room exactly like the one in my dream. And yes, it's a heartwarming room. Damn, I always want to spend my Christmas somewhere snowy and united statey (is that even a word?). Sigh, right now I'm in a state of serious envy with my cousins there. Mmmh, speaking of which yah, recently I watched never-too-many TV series thanks to my colleague in office =) Started from Heroes , Prison Break , Supernatural , My Name is Earl , Grey's Anatomy , Jericho , Scrubs , Coffee Prince , A Love to Kill , Hana Yori Dango , dll. Ehm, among ...

Is it true that women was given the gift called intuition? Well, if it’s true, then sometimes I hate this gift. I hate to be acquainted with what others might think about me, whether they’re irritated or dissapointed at me. It might be better if I lack of that knowledge nonetheless. World will be brighter, sky will be bluer, food will taste better, and obviously I don’t have to suffer this annoying feeling. Btw, recently I recalled some of my old conversations among friends.One of them quote the infamous quote, "Don't get yourself flying too high, because when you fell, it'll hurts" But today, I just read the opposite of that quote, "Falling from three stairs and fifty stairs will be hurt anyway. So when I do fall, it better be from a higher place." Pretty nice. Never think about it before. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Being working more than 6 months in a big company, a super-fast-trade-off shoul...

Ever felt something similar to a burden on your weight, a feeling that you shouldn't brag to anyone or couldn't complain to anyone, or even telling them how you feel, simply because you're not really in the high moment at the time? Well, I s'pose to acknowledge my lack of attention on those things.. But today it felt so damn real. I could not send any of my messages without the pang of guilty. And that's because I do not want to bother them with my problem, my sorrow mood, unhappy days, or anything else. How weird is that? Me, the master of ignorance, actually had a second thought on bothering people with my own problem. Great! And next morning I'll see sun rises from the west. --------------- Had I posted this several days ago, somebody will be pissed off.. And that refers to me.. So, lesson learnt, never post anything depressing while your emotion in a labil condition =P